2lb off

I did not meet my goal for my health class. I am 2 lbs off. However, I am still on track for my goal by the time we renew our wedding vows. I am very excited about that :) I have been able to lose weight eating all whole foods. That is something I did not think was possible. Though tonight is my last class I will continue on my health journey. Since the beginning of January I have lost 20lbs. I am getting there, slowly (which is better), but getting there. One lb at a time :) Sometimes in life we come short of our goals but that doesnt mean we have to give up or throw in the towel. Keep on keeping on!!!!

Musings of a genetically mutated mom

I started my health journey quite a few years ago and in that found out I needed thyroid medicine (natural kind). There were other things too like my estrogen was super de duper high. Probably more but I cant remember. I lost 69 lbs and then was pregnant with our 5th beautiful blessing. In January of this year I started the weight loss journey again. I found myself at 201 lbs. I started MediFast again and it was slow going. I then started an 8 week health class. Eating low glycemic. My goal has always been to lose the wight without a program, on whole foods. This class was what i needed. Someone to monitor my food intake and help me where I struggled. Apparently I wasn't eating enough. Can you believe it...not eating enough. How could that help me lose weight. Tomorrow is our last class. I have thoroughly enjoyed it and will be bummed when its over. While in this class I discovered that I have some genetic mutations. This basically means my body cannot absorb nutrients like folic acid and b vitamins. I started a natural shot regimen. The first shot was a full dose and made me sick. The second shot was a lower dose and did nothing. This last shot was a full dose and made me sick but not as bad as before. I really want my body to accept this. my friend is doing so well on it. Im so happy for her!!!! It will be my turn one day, I have hope that it will help me and my body will accept this treatment. I really want to know what it is like to feel normal. When i tell people they way i feel or the way my body behaves people tell me that is not natural....one day my body will behave itself. Im praying sooner than later :)

Kid FUN!!!!

Right now we are peeling the wrapper off of the crayons to melt them into different shapes. Peeling the crayons is a long task but I think they will enjoy using the melted crayons to color with. I learned this from Pinterest :) and bought the crayons while they were $0.24/box in an after school sale :)

Recently...

So recently some friends were asking if I didnt have my babies what would be my dream job. Well kids i was working my dream job and quit when I had my babies. I would still be interpreting - if u know me in the slightest I am addicted to ASL. I so wish I was interpreting for my church. I do miss that. I would probably be interpreting plays, maybe on tour with one of my fav bands interpreting their concerts. i love to interpret music - music is a huge part of my life and that would be awesome to do!!!! so ya...

Determined!!!

In high school I was a horse of a different color - i had my own style and got voted most weird my senior year. Ca is a big melting pot and so i had friends that accepted me for who i am. in fact i still have a few friends from that era of my life. well now being a sahm - ive let myself go - not really caring about my appearance, i wear hand me downs so my clothes style is not necessarily mine, but what friends dont want anymore - and im fine with it, and am so thankful for their generosity to me, i wouldnt trade it for anythingint he world - but on the other hand i would like to get my style back. no i wont be sporting a cape anymore - but i am determined to slowly get my style back - whatever that style is now - i really dont know anymore - i havent really bought clothes in so long. the last thing i bought was a dress for my 30th bday party. as i lose this baby weight and get back to my size i will be keeping my eye on things that i like and slowly get them as i can. thankfully i have a ways to go to lose this weight so it gives me time :) i wont be buying a large amount of clothes but i will be wearing my hand me downs and incorporating them into my style :) yes i am looking forward to this - its like re-purposing my wardrobe - keeping what i have, accepting and wearing hand me downs and occasionally buying something to spice it up a bit :)

our brush with thrush

in the past my other kids have had thrush and contrary to popular belief thrush is not caused by a dog kissing your face - we dont have pets! Anyway...it was never painful for me when the baby would have thrush...well this time was different. i guess since the baby was in the nicu and had antibiotics and i thought i was getting mastitis a week later i took antibiotics as well. that just escalated the thrush. it was so bad that my nipples were cracked and bleeding and it looked like chucks were missing. heres what i did for it. most strains are resistant to nystain. and both baby and mom need to be treated no matter who has and doesnt have the symptoms. the baby had nystatin and it worked for him and i used monistat. with the monistat you need to buy the 2%. then they started to bleed and so my dr. prescribed bactroban. it is also a cream to speed up the healing process. this worked for us. neither cream need to be wiped off prior to nursing. wiping off may cause further damage. put it on after nursing. i also would rinse my breasts after each nursing and let them air dry and then put the creams on. i write this so that anyone in the future who may have this can be informed. :) happy nursing!!!

society has made it where if u have a big family or want a big family everyone says nyour crazyn. i will say that with my pregnancy with marek this was confirmed. people i respected gave me the hardest time. it broke my heart to hear things like youre crazy or when i told them their tone and fake congrats just really tore me up inside. or they would ask r u done after this one and when i say probably and they ask y and we say our reasons they say well you should of thought about that before this one. so many daggers were thrown at me and i learned that people are people. and people are mean. respecta for people went out the door and i had to learn to let it go and forgive and move on. its a hard lesson to learn but it only helps me grow. i learned to appreciate the good responses we got when we shared our news. my favorite was my dad. with a big smile on his face he was happy and said you make me feel old. i write this because i learned to apprecite so much in this pregnancy. life is a gift. i learned to appreciate those who love our family no matter the size. just because something is hard or someone is having a hard time doesnt give u the right to bash them. we are supposed to encourage each other on this journey. my advice to you...you never know the impact of your words...choose them carefully...you can never take them back. and so i will continue to cuddle my sweet boy. hide these lessons learned in my heart. toxic comments will not take me captive. but the joy of the lord...that is what i want to pass on.